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Happy Valentine's Day

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 14, 2013, 8:35 PM



Hi guys, sorry I haven't been online in a while. My life feels like it's gone to shit lately and I needed some time away from dA. I'll probably stay on hiatus for a while longer but I won't delete any of the messages sitting in my inbox so I'll be able to reply to everything when I get back.

I'm scared, frustrated, tired, ashamed, and I want to puke, but I feel like I'm not allowed to be anything other than happy, so that's the way I act most of the time. It feels like I'm wearing a mask and frankly, I get tired of it after a while.

I've fucked up my education, my mother probably thinks I'm a loser, my parents' marriage is falling apart, and I'm really not quite sure what to do anymore.

*EDIT* Feeling better now after going out for frozen yogurt and DDR with SpiritedFang. I'm sorry for whining and being a buttface and thank you so much for putting up with my shit, guys.



medli20 awaaaaaaaayyyyyy! *whoosh*
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HungrySohma16 Feb 17, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Im sorry to hear that you are going through such a tough time. I hope that things will lighten up over time.

I understand what its like putting on a Mask all the time. If I show any emotion Im usually pushed into unnecessary and petty arguments that leave me feeling pursued and bitter.

At the same time Im grateful I have my bf, and family to go to when I feel down. I can at least tell them what bugs me. Its always good to talk things out.
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:iconzorabanna:
Frozen yogurth is the best medicine. Hope you feel okay soon.
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:iconalberthein1:
You just need a whole lot of....
TESTOSTERONE INJECTED DIRECTLY INTO YOUR SPIRIT.
A cut here and there, a new implant of HOPE, a few gallons of WILLPOWER...
But most of all, a certain prescription with on it a clear, black on white sentence that tells you what it is you need do to get of there.
The thing is, there is only one doctor who is capable of these operations.
But I believe in that doctor, because she has made it this far, and surely won't give up if yogurt can heal.
That doctor, is no other than yourself.

YOU GO GIRL, YOU STAND YOUR (wo-)MAN, AND MAKE YOUR PARENTS PROUD BECAUSE YOU CAN!
I had fun making this comment, though I bet it could've had a better way of promoting your's truly. Oh well, humor is a medicine I like giving ^^
But can you imagine how proud you'll be of yourself when you manage it all?
YOU'LL FEEL LIKE PUNCHING BRICK WALLS TO DUST AND CRUNCHING THEM INTO DIAMONDS FOR PROFIT (moustache required). YOU'LL FEEL TRÉ BON!
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TheDarkLordCreator Feb 15, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Man... I really hope that stuff will get better soon for you. ):
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MissDarkAngel167 Feb 15, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Awwh I'm really sorry to hear about all that :( Hang in there and I'm sure it'll work itself out in the end :hug: I kinda know how you feel though. Having exams and school stuff while your parents are splitting up is hard but it will turn out for the better I'm sure :hug:
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:iconunknown-variable:
I know that we don't know each other well, but if you just need to rant or something, you can send me a note. :hug:
I'm none too good with words of advice, but I listen well, and I can betcha that everything on your list is not your fault or can be fixed. :)

Also, Fro-yo helps everything, even if it is freezing outside XD
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:iconlord-phillock:
Awwwwww, it's ooookaaaay, Meeeedliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...
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SpiritedFang Feb 14, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Hope you're feeling better now. :huggle: I'm always awake for whenever you want to talk.
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Peeka13 Feb 14, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
;A;
You sound like you need a hug.
But since I cannot be there in person a virtual hug will have to do for now. :hug:
Just hang in there and I'm sure everything will turn out fine in the end. o3o
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AgentSol Feb 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
*Hugs* ..Heh,I hope things look up for you soon..~
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